Tomorrow morning, I’ll board a plane for London to see my daughter and my grandson. I’ve been there many times, now. This trip, like all others will have its own unique character. The word “fullness” comes to mind when I think of this trip.
My daughter: The fullness of belly, of breasts. Incubating her next child, while she discovers that, to her astonishment, the fullness of her heart can open even more to include this new as yet unborn child. I imagine my eyes following her as she moves around the flat, caring for her two children, one here, one in waiting. I will remember my own second pregnancy, which was to end in her birth, so easily forgotten at times, when caring for one already-here small child.
My grandson: The fullness of his mouth, that now spills words so easily. What was expressed until now with pointing, with arms waving, with head nods, with a learned-in-daycare signing, can now all be heard. Words rush from his lips. They tumble over each other and bounce off him, the furniture, the toys, the walls. I will arrive in darkness, and he will already be asleep. I imagine my first sight of him on Friday morning, as I stand over his crib. “NeNe is here,” I will say, and he will repeat “NeNe.” The sound of my name will rush toward me, and I will embrace it, even before I bend down to embrace him.
My suitcases: Bursting with maternity clothes and newborn clothes that have been stored in my attic. I have rewashed the already clean newborn clothes. I think I have done this just so I can touch them all again, hold them up and marvel once again that a human being can be that small. And in a selfish way, I revel in the fact that I am touching these tiny garments before they will touch the squirming body of my second grandchild.
The fullness of joy. And of gratitude. And of love.
Joyce
March 16, 2011
Imagine the fullness of my heart reading this post and thinking of your travels to London. My eyes are full and brimming with tears of happiness for you. I know how much this trip (and all trips) to visit your children and grandchild mean to you. Lovely writing, lovely you, my friend. Have a great time.
lifeintheboomerlane
March 16, 2011
Thank you, my dear friend. Bryan is actually in the US for a week, and so Yael and I will have a lot of alone time. And this is the last time I’ll see her before the baby is born. And Jonah has started talking, which ramps the fun quotient off the charts.
Lori Hamilton
March 16, 2011
Congratulations, Renee!! Oh, and thanks for visiting my blog the other day, hope you will subscribe!
lifeintheboomerlane
March 17, 2011
Thanks, Lori! Will do!
Emily Jane
March 16, 2011
What an exciting time – this trip is going to be so chock-full of emotion and love. Have a wonderful time – don’t forget to check in on the Red Nose Day festivities! 🙂
lifeintheboomerlane
March 17, 2011
Thanks, Emily Jane! Yes, I will check out Nose Day festivities!
merrilymarylee
March 16, 2011
Remind me not to whine about my grandkids being only a day’s drive away any more! Have a wonderful trip and remember, you may be too famous for your Pilates class, but don’t come back too sexy for your blog.
Congratulations on Freshly Pressed. 🙂
lifeintheboomerlane
March 17, 2011
Thanks Mary Lee! Ooooh, what a thought, being too sexy for my blog.
1959duke
March 16, 2011
Have a safe trip and be careful!
lifeintheboomerlane
March 17, 2011
Thanks, Duke!
V.V. Denman
March 16, 2011
What a wonderful NeNe you are, Renee. Have a great trip.
lifeintheboomerlane
March 17, 2011
Thanks, and thanks!
yael
March 16, 2011
So beautiful. We are ready for your fullness!
lifeintheboomerlane
March 17, 2011
It’s almost here! xxoo
Lisa Kramer
March 16, 2011
What a beautiful, full post. Safe travels and i hope you have a full trip!
lifeintheboomerlane
March 18, 2011
Thanks, Lisa!
writerwoman61
March 17, 2011
Beautiful post, Renée…have an amazing time with Yael and baby Jonah!
Wendy
P.S. Fingers crossed that you make it through airport security with a minimum of fuss…
lifeintheboomerlane
March 17, 2011
Thanks, Wendy. Ugh, it’s always a three ring circus when I go through security. I set off alarms they didn’t even know they had.
36x37
March 17, 2011
Lovely post, Renee, and beautifully written. Safe and happy travels to you!
lifeintheboomerlane
March 17, 2011
Thanks, Maura! I think the only way I get to rest is to get on a plane!
carldagostino
March 17, 2011
“…caring for her two children, one here, one in waiting.” Without mentioning a particular word for a particularly distasteful process I see fullness in that you have such regard for the unborn child. Being a grandpa has been one of the most dramatic things to influence how I feel about myself and life in general. I have a sense of fullness now that could not be replaced by so many things I used to think were important.
lifeintheboomerlane
March 17, 2011
Well said, Carl. I know all the jokes people make about besotted grandparents. But the truth is that it’s a pretty life-altering experience.
territerri
March 17, 2011
Oh, enjoy this trip and your time with loved ones! You are so lucky – and clearly, so are they, to have you love them so much!
lifeintheboomerlane
March 17, 2011
Thanks, Terri!
Archie Harders
March 17, 2011
I would urge you to enjoy and savor every moment of your visit, but such encouragement is clearly superfluous and unnecessary besides.
May you have enough.
lifeintheboomerlane
March 17, 2011
I will take that under advisement.
friko
March 17, 2011
Wonderful.
Have a lovely time in London, full of gladness.
Hen’s Teeth have (has) a lot to answer for. I found yet another bog I like. Yours.
lifeintheboomerlane
March 17, 2011
Thanks for visiting Life in the Boomer Lane!
itsahappyblog
March 17, 2011
Beautiful writing! Thank you for sharing this. Just spent my (very early) morning re-scrap booking my mother’s baby shower album from when I was born. Then I stopped to read such a lovely tribute to motherhood and grand motherhood. You have inspired me to begin working on the journal entries for the new album:)
lifeintheboomerlane
March 18, 2011
How special that you have your baby shower album. I’m happy that my post has inspired you to work on the journal entries!
Walker
March 17, 2011
Fullness, indeed. Beautifully expressed, I never really thought about the idea of holding on to that yet to born child in such a loving manner.
And, like you, I cherish the moments when my little one, now 2 years old, looks up and calls me NanaWawa… who knew it could be so wonderful.
Have a great trip. Your daughter is fortunate to have a mother as loving and devoted as you are.
lifeintheboomerlane
March 18, 2011
Thanks, Walker. Ah, I love “NanaWawa.” Yes, grandparenthood is its own special place in the heart.
Tori Nelson
March 17, 2011
Beautiful post!
lifeintheboomerlane
March 18, 2011
Thanks, Tori!
sunshineinlondon
March 17, 2011
What a beautiful post, Renee. Enjoy every minute of your time with your family, I can so imagine how precious such times are. And I can’t WAIT to meet you!
Sunshine xx
lifeintheboomerlane
March 18, 2011
I’ll call you later today!
Kathryn McCullough
March 17, 2011
Ah, Renee, what a beautiful post. Have a safe trip and lovely time with your family!
And how fun that you and Sunshine will meet–wish I could be there!
Not in Haiti Anymore 😦
Kathy
lifeintheboomerlane
March 18, 2011
Thanks, Kathy. I’ll make sure to take photos! Can’t wait to read the next chapter of the Baby Doc interview!
Natalie
March 18, 2011
Isn’t it wondeful that we’ve been able to enjoy both our children and our grandchildren! You have an amazing way of expressing the thoughts and feelings of so many . . . and with terrific insight. Hope you have a wonderful visit and uneventful travels.
lifeintheboomerlane
March 18, 2011
Thanks, Natalie!
Lunar Euphoria
March 21, 2011
How lovely!
Safe travels.
lifeintheboomerlane
March 21, 2011
Thanks, Lunar!
subWOW
March 21, 2011
I figured out that you are now still in London? Have fun!!!
notajackass
March 28, 2011
Please change the featured pic of this post. As soon as I see bridges & rivers, I start to get an urge to pull off an Alexander on this world.